Janette sitting at her desk with planner and papers surrounding

"I think I can fit one more thing into this calendar."

Everyday is another step in this journey into the unknown.  Every month the inevitable draws closer.  At times I get anxious about what I need to get done to get the house packed and ready, other times it is concern whether the kids are spending enough time learning French, then there is medical piece – I just realized that I need to take board exams this fall!  (I will save that drama for another post :)).  On Thursday night last week I had multiple episodes of waking in a panic…the fear of the unknown.  I tried to fight it each time and rest, but it was a struggle.  When the light came and my perspective was better, I picked up my Bible and said, “God, you have to help me deal with whatever this is.”   I prayed and read and waited.  God’s response was quick.  How much time did you spend with me – focused time, praying and reading the Bible – this past week? My response was just as quick, “I took time to be alone everyday – well, I did spend a few of those days working on French because I needed to check it off my list, and I was working on my Perspectives class, but that talks about you, and I did nap, which is sometimes necessary…I guess I never actually read the Bible or listened…”  Romans 15:13  “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Janette, I want to fill you with ALL JOY AND PEACE…but you have to TRUST in me.  And the only way to trust in me is to BE WITH ME.  You lose perspective every moment you are not in my presence, after too many days listening to your self-talk rather than my words of life, you begin to stop trusting me and focus instead on the unknown. Everyday is another step in this journey into the unknown.  But I walk hand in hand with my Heavenly Father who is leading the way.  I don’t want Hannah or Josiah to concern themselves with the details of moving to Africa, that’s our jobs in beijing.  I don’t want Samuel or Leah checking to see if our funds have been raised or concerning themselves with who will support us.  I want them to trust us and enjoy the adventure – they don’t need to be afraid because we are going with them, leading them and sharing every moment.  My Heavenly Father has a similar perspective.  Hold my hand, Janette, and enjoy the adventure with Me.